I have not posted often, however, read the current posts daily.
Tonight, I'm a bit.... I really do not know how to describe it.... maybe a bit blue.
Chiari Malformation, and it's sweet sister ad ons. is a lonely journey.
The stories I read here, and the experiences that people are willing to share, are so important to me, when it comes to coping with this part of my personal journey.
When it really comes down to it, I am the person that turns this event to the course in life that I would want to take.
You want to be there for your family and friends, yet you do not have the energy to do just that which would accomplish that.
As much as your loved ones want to understand, and accept that you are just not the person you use to be, they just cannot quite get to that point. You know that, and you deal with it.
There is so much, that changes daily for me. Normally, I do not dwell on the abstract, but, I am human,and sometimes, dammit, I just do not rise to the occasion of being something that I am not; something that I used to be.
This problem, just seems to want to suck the life out of me.
I am enjoying my pity party tonight, because I rarely even tell myself the truth about how I feel.
So, thank you, whoever is reading this, and know that maybe like you, sometimes you just need ten minutes of blue, to turn to two weeks of sunshine.