Losing my mind?

So two years ago before my surgery I enjoyed firework shows , christian rock concerts, and being in public places around kids. Now every time there are fireworks I hold my ears and cry make it stop. If I go to church the music is two loud and I hold my ears and cry make it stop. And when I'm in a place an kids start screaming loudly I end up with my ears covered and crying. I don't even think about doing this it just happens. It feels like my head is open and they are cutting me . Does anyone else feel like this? I just wish things could be normal whatever that is.