Do I learn to forget (accept it), or struggle to remember? which is worse?

I'm past the shock, actually in a weird way its relieving to know I was right about something being wrong, symptoms are normal just getting worse. Why I wrote that statement: it took me 45 mins to remember my uncles name who I havent seen in maybe 5-7 years.......Just struggling because I'm the type of person that would rat my brain for hours trying to find that hidden answer stored away in this so called big brain that doesnt do anything but store not retrieve. its frustrating, and I'm sure your all just hearing things that you've already thought through it just really sucks..................thanx for the vent session :)